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I hope you don't think you can't say how you feel to me, I know I am I AM BIPOLAR at times. I just hate when people disrespect the disorder with out being educated on it.

I also have PTSD and some Borderline Personality (ha, I feel like a dog that has some Collie in her)... I have A LOT of things to work out, I know this.. It seems having a mood disorder makes everything that much harder, I could be fine one minute and the next I'm someone else. I wish I could just tackle one problem at a time but it's difficult for me... Right now I'm going through a med adjustment that is turning my world upside down. I'm on Lithium, Tegretol, Trazodone and Xanax. The Tregretol is my number 1 enemny at this time and for some reason my pdoc LOVES it! I also go to threapy once a week so I am very active with this disorder... My main problems/triggers right now is 1) Father just got diagnosed with Lung Cancer 2) Broke up with my boyfriend 3) Sister in Law just got diagnosed with Breast Cancer... All of this in the mist of a med change, I don't know whether I'm coming or going. This is the first time I've mentioned the cancer on this site, I just couldn't deal with it.

I think your right the sooner the better, I however developed this at a very young age due to a childhood trauma.. It was never treated until I was 30, I'm 33...

The only thing that keeps me going right now is my son.. I know I will get better, I have my ups and downs, I'm just having a very down time right now..


Thanks Marsh, that made me feel good as well!!!
[QUOTE=Dee-nah;3042556]I hope you don't think you can't say how you feel to me, I know I am I AM BIPOLAR at times. I just hate when people disrespect the disorder with out being educated on it. I have tried to educate myself as much as I can to help my daughter as many other loved ones do to help their loved ones out....from coming here I realize that not everybody does that and I have protectively forewarned my daughter not to just go around telling everybody that she has Bipolar because many people will unfortunately associate that with something that they don't want to be around rather than getting to know her and seeing the wonderful, sensitive, caring person she can be. I would imagine that you do the same thing because let's face it, not everybody is going to take the time out to educate themselves about BP unless they really care about somebody who has it and even then some people still are too lazy to even do that. I would categorize most men to be that way (sorry EYES:) ) my hubby included. The only way that he has any knowledge or understanding is through all that I have shared with him and in speaking to the doctors. He is a wonderful guy and there are wonderful, well meaning people, but not all of them are going to educate themselves about BP unless it touches their lives in a way that they need to have knowledge in order to go through it. So I do understand what you are saying but evenso, as much knowledge as I do have I still do not KNOW what it is like to be BP because I don't have it. But I do wish to understand FP because BP has touched my life to the very core by my daughter having the disorder.

[QUOTE=Dee-nah;3042556]I also have PTSD and some Borderline Personality (ha, I feel like a dog that has some Collie in her)... I have A LOT of things to work out, I know this.. It seems having a mood disorder makes everything that much harder, I could be fine one minute and the next I'm someone else. I wish I could just tackle one problem at a time but it's difficult for me... Right now I'm going through a med adjustment that is turning my world upside down. I'm on Lithium, Tegretol, Trazodone and Xanax. The Tregretol is my number 1 enemny at this time and for some reason my pdoc LOVES it! I also go to threapy once a week so I am very active with this disorder... My main problems/triggers right now is 1) Father just got diagnosed with Lung Cancer 2) Broke up with my boyfriend 3) Sister in Law just got diagnosed with Breast Cancer... All of this in the mist of a med change, I don't know whether I'm coming or going. This is the first time I've mentioned the cancer on this site, I just couldn't deal with it. Dee-nah, I sooo appreciate your sharing that with us here and know that it probably wasn't an easy thing for you to do. But in order to understand what you are going through sharing such things makes it easier for us.:) That being said, yes, you do have your plate pretty full now. So many stressors as well as coexisting conditions.:eek: But you are doing a great job of trying to stabilize yourself. Unfortunately with so many things coming at you all at once that is a difficult feat for and pdoc to do. Even the best of meds will only do so much when all of this is going on. I know that the tegretol is not your favorite thing right now but they do say that a med should be given a fair chance. There are only so many meds out there and you don't want to exhaust them all before giving them a fair chance. And with all those stressors it is a challenge to really evaluate what is not working vs. the triggers that are breaking through something that otherwise might work. Can you understand what I am saying???

What exactly is happening with the Tegretol that makes it your #1 enemy??? I think that you mentioned it here and that Tsohl suggested the time released form (retard, I think:confused: ) Is your pdoc open to letting you try that form of the med??? If not I would like you to keep something tucked in your back pocket. I have heard from others here that when the Tegretol didn't work Trileptal did. It is in the same family as Tegretol but is missing some of the chemical makeup and when the Tegretol doesn't work then the Trileptal does. And I don't think it requires any blood monitoring as well. My daughter was on it and liked how it worked and was upset when she developed a rash and had to be taken off of it.

[QUOTE=Dee-nah;3042556]I think your right the sooner the better, I however developed this at a very young age due to a childhood trauma.. It was never treated until I was 30, I'm 33... Like I said, that's water under the bridge the past is the past and you have to work with what you have now. I am sorry about the trauma that you brought this all about. It is important that you work through that as well so that you can leave that all in the past and not drag it all around like a ball & chain weiging you down. I hope that you will be able to do that.

[QUOTE=Dee-nah;3042556]The only thing that keeps me going right now is my son.. I know I will get better, I have my ups and downs, I'm just having a very down time right now...... I am so sorry to hear that, Dee, but remember as I often tell Erin, today is not going to be the same as tomorrow. As bad as things may seem there is always a better day ahead....you said it yourself....there are ups and downs....so that must mean that there is another "up" ahead for you.:D One day there will be longer intervals between the two....I promise you that.:angel: So meanwhile know that there are many of us here to help you through the down times even if it is just to share a few words with you or send you some (((((HUGS))))))

Love ~ Goody:angel: :wave: