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Every night I cry myself to sleep and pray that I dont wake up in the morning.

I used to wake up next to a wonderful person in a big comfy bed in a big beautiful house to a life where I didnt have to worry about anything, ever. I had a wonderful husband who loved me so much and took good care of me. I was SO happy.

Now I wake up all alone sleeping on a couch in my 400 sq ft apt because I cant afford a bed, with a pile of bills on my coffee table that I cant pay, and a pile of trash in the kitchen that I dont have the energy to take out.

All I can do is cry and sleep and drink wine and pop pills. I cry in my car, I cry when I brush my teeth, I cry at my desk at work, I cry in the super market, I cry everywhere, all the time. The sadness hurts so bad that sometimes I wanna throw up too. I feel like nothing is going to ever be good again. I cant even begin to imagine feeling happy again, it seems impossible.

I've been seeing a therapist for about 5 weeks now. I like him... but I dont feel any better, in fact I feel it getting worse. I started Zoloft yesterday.

Nobody understands. People keep telling me - cheer up, it will get better. But I can't just CHEER UP, and it's not getting better, it's getting worse every day. I'm so overwhelmed. Sometimes I just wanna grab people and cry and scream HELP ME. But I don't even know what that means. I don't know what would help.
Quote from katesmack:
Every night I cry myself to sleep and pray that I dont wake up in the morning.

I used to wake up next to a wonderful person in a big comfy bed in a big beautiful house to a life where I didnt have to worry about anything, ever. I had a wonderful husband who loved me so much and took good care of me. I was SO happy.

Now I wake up all alone sleeping on a couch in my 400 sq ft apt because I cant afford a bed, with a pile of bills on my coffee table that I cant pay, and a pile of trash in the kitchen that I dont have the energy to take out.

All I can do is cry and sleep and drink wine and pop pills. I cry in my car, I cry when I brush my teeth, I cry at my desk at work, I cry in the super market, I cry everywhere, all the time. The sadness hurts so bad that sometimes I wanna throw up too. I feel like nothing is going to ever be good again. I cant even begin to imagine feeling happy again, it seems impossible.

I've been seeing a therapist for about 5 weeks now. I like him... but I dont feel any better, in fact I feel it getting worse. I started Zoloft yesterday.

Nobody understands. People keep telling me - cheer up, it will get better. But I can't just CHEER UP, and it's not getting better, it's getting worse every day. I'm so overwhelmed. Sometimes I just wanna grab people and cry and scream HELP ME. But I don't even know what that means. I don't know what would help.


I don't know if I have any answers here but the wine and pill popping will only deepen depression. Zoloft might help, might not or even hurt. Obviously you do NOT have so called chemical depression as your life situation(aka loss of husband and security) is what is causing your depression.

Since you are so poor financially, if I were you I would try to go back to school and get a career in something that pays better.....since you are in a lower income, you could probably qualify for financial aid to pay for it. Once you have a better income maybe that will make you feel better...of course, a broken heart is a different matter that will take some time to heal but it will heal. Good luck.
Quote from Jennita:
I don't know if I have any answers here but the wine and pill popping will only deepen depression. Zoloft might help, might not or even hurt. Obviously you do NOT have so called chemical depression as your life situation(aka loss of husband and security) is what is causing your depression.

Since you are so poor financially, if I were you I would try to go back to school and get a career in something that pays better.....since you are in a lower income, you could probably qualify for financial aid to pay for it. Once you have a better income maybe that will make you feel better...of course, a broken heart is a different matter that will take some time to heal but it will heal. Good luck.


Thanks.

It is chemical depression though. The depression came first, contributing to the dissolution of the marriage - resulting in an even deeper depression.