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Hey, Jennita! How are you doing? I'm still horrible, especially since I'm two-and-a-half weeks away from finals, and I have to write a research paper, take a lab practicum tomorrow (in addition to registering for my next semester classes), and have a chem exam Wednesday...Fun, fun! :rolleyes: I started Klonopin, and it's the only thing as of yet that actually does anything for my panic attacks- haven't taken it yet this morning, so I'm having one as we speak! ;) I take the 0.125 mg wafer daily (I have 0.5 mg for REALLY bad days- read "dentist"!), and it helps because it doesn't make me a zombie like the 0.5 mg, it gets rid of my morning panic attacks, which are the worst, so I don't have them during class, and I still get less intense panic attacks throughout the day- I didn't like the 0.5 b/c it completely got rid of my panic attacks (along with the rest of my feelings), and after having panic attacks since age 3, I wouldn't know how to react without them in certain situations, as sad as that may sound! :D I also started Lamictal for my possible cyclothymia/mood swings, and my psychiatrist here also said that it'll help for my "racing thoughts" that are really obsessions. I'm on Prozac now, after having weaned off of the Zoloft. I go to CBT every Thursday up here, at a place that's only an hour from my college, but would be three hours from my home. I really like my therapist; she actually understands, and she sees OCD-related things that even I don't! I hate to define myself with my illness, but I truly feel that all of my traits, both good and bad, are from my OCD, but that's to be expected since I've had it all of my life. Again, I'm not one of those people who thinks she has every single thing she reads about- when I suspect something (whether it was the OCD or cyclothymia, which I turned out to be right on both accounts), I'll research endlessly to figure out if I'm experiencing it. I've long suspected that I have some Asperger's-like traits, though I don't have actual Asperger's, and the more I read about the things the young kids do, it's like looking into a mirror of my childhood years. Also, after struggling in yet another math class this year (calculus), and reading about Nonverbal Learning Disorder, I wouldn't doubt that I had that, too. Many OCD children have it as part of their messed-up brain circuitry, and it would help explain why my mathematical skills are so screwed up. It's not even as if it's my "weakness", and that I'm trying to find an excuse for why it's the one thing I don't excel in- there's definitely a problem. Why else would I literally be the only one in classes, ever since elementary school, who gets certain advanced algebraic concepts, but is the only one who can't seem to grasp geometrical figures and graphs, no matter how hard I try, no matter how many hours I get help from the teacher? It's always been like this, for as long as I can remember, and it's not as if I'm "stupid" in math, but though I get concepts, give me a word problem or a multi-step problem, and I don't know what to do with the information, or worse, my OCD will make me doubt what I remember. The really funny thing is that I've always done extremely well in science, and everyone associates the two together, but it's really not true. I'm doing well in my chemistry class, and the only thing math-related that we do that I don't get is stoichiometry, and, surprise, surprise, I struggled with this all throughout my chem class in my junior year of high school! :D And, yet, you give me logarithms, equations, fractional exponents, and I can do them in five seconds, whereas the rest of the class has trouble. It's very frustrating...God knows how many times I've been in tears over math since kindergarten. They also said that these kids have trouble tying their shoes and reading a clock- can you guess who had difficulty with both? ;) The good thing is that I only need the two easiest calc classes for my major (really- when I'm in my neuropsychological lab, I'll only need algebra and statistics...), and if I don't get a good-enough grade in this one, I'll take it over. Normally, I would feel so ashamed of this, but I feel that I've come a long way, since even last year. I know that I try, and the situation IS kind of hopeless- if I have something wrong, and I haven't been able to fix it in 14 years, will I ever? And more importantly, will I ever need calculus? No- not for my chem classes, and I'm not taking physics or physical chemistry, so once I get through it, I'll be done. It's just one more stressor that my OCD makes me feel guilty about...I really appreciate you responding, and I hope you write back soon! I enjoy talking to you! God bless! :angel:
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Hey, Jennita! How are you doing? I'm still horrible, especially since I'm two-and-a-half weeks away from finals, and I have to write a research paper, take a lab practicum tomorrow (in addition to registering for my next semester classes), and have a chem exam Wednesday...Fun, fun! :rolleyes: I started Klonopin, and it's the only thing as of yet that actually does anything for my panic attacks- haven't taken it yet this morning, so I'm having one as we speak! ;) I take the 0.125 mg wafer daily (I have 0.5 mg for REALLY bad days- read "dentist"!), and it helps because it doesn't make me a zombie like the 0.5 mg, it gets rid of my morning panic attacks, which are the worst, so I don't have them during class, and I still get less intense panic attacks throughout the day- I didn't like the 0.5 b/c it completely got rid of my panic attacks (along with the rest of my feelings), and after having panic attacks since age 3, I wouldn't know how to react without them in certain situations, as sad as that may sound! :D I also started Lamictal for my possible cyclothymia/mood swings, and my psychiatrist here also said that it'll help for my "racing thoughts" that are really obsessions. I'm on Prozac now, after having weaned off of the Zoloft. I go to CBT every Thursday up here, at a place that's only an hour from my college, but would be three hours from my home. I really like my therapist; she actually understands, and she sees OCD-related things that even I don't! I hate to define myself with my illness, but I truly feel that all of my traits, both good and bad, are from my OCD, but that's to be expected since I've had it all of my life. Again, I'm not one of those people who thinks she has every single thing she reads about- when I suspect something (whether it was the OCD or cyclothymia, which I turned out to be right on both accounts), I'll research endlessly to figure out if I'm experiencing it. I've long suspected that I have some Asperger's-like traits, though I don't have actual Asperger's, and the more I read about the things the young kids do, it's like looking into a mirror of my childhood years. Also, after struggling in yet another math class this year (calculus), and reading about Nonverbal Learning Disorder, I wouldn't doubt that I had that, too. Many OCD children have it as part of their messed-up brain circuitry, and it would help explain why my mathematical skills are so screwed up. It's not even as if it's my "weakness", and that I'm trying to find an excuse for why it's the one thing I don't excel in- there's definitely a problem. Why else would I literally be the only one in classes, ever since elementary school, who gets certain advanced algebraic concepts, but is the only one who can't seem to grasp geometrical figures and graphs, no matter how hard I try, no matter how many hours I get help from the teacher? It's always been like this, for as long as I can remember, and it's not as if I'm "stupid" in math, but though I get concepts, give me a word problem or a multi-step problem, and I don't know what to do with the information, or worse, my OCD will make me doubt what I remember. The really funny thing is that I've always done extremely well in science, and everyone associates the two together, but it's really not true. I'm doing well in my chemistry class, and the only thing math-related that we do that I don't get is stoichiometry, and, surprise, surprise, I struggled with this all throughout my chem class in my junior year of high school! :D And, yet, you give me logarithms, equations, fractional exponents, and I can do them in five seconds, whereas the rest of the class has trouble. It's very frustrating...God knows how many times I've been in tears over math since kindergarten. They also said that these kids have trouble tying their shoes and reading a clock- can you guess who had difficulty with both? ;) The good thing is that I only need the two easiest calc classes for my major (really- when I'm in my neuropsychological lab, I'll only need algebra and statistics...), and if I don't get a good-enough grade in this one, I'll take it over. Normally, I would feel so ashamed of this, but I feel that I've come a long way, since even last year. I know that I try, and the situation IS kind of hopeless- if I have something wrong, and I haven't been able to fix it in 14 years, will I ever? And more importantly, will I ever need calculus? No- not for my chem classes, and I'm not taking physics or physical chemistry, so once I get through it, I'll be done. It's just one more stressor that my OCD makes me feel guilty about...I really appreciate you responding, and I hope you write back soon! I enjoy talking to you! God bless! :angel:
-GatsbyLuvr1920-


Ok, Gats, as far as I'm concerned, you don't need "fixing"... so chalk it up to 14 years of knowledge and becoming who you are now which is pretty darn good IMO! You should be proud taking on all that school in the first place, it's alot of work, hard, time consuming, etc. But you are doing it and sounds like doing it well, except for the math but really, alot of people suck at math!

My daughter's boyfriend looks at her like she's a freak of nature while she sits there with all those pages of god-knows what all that stuff means(I don't have a clue) and she's up to Linear Algebra now having gotten A's in all her Calculus classes! Her counselor at school said Math majors are scarce these days so yeah, Gats, you are not alone in this! Almost everyone sucks at math....you know what's interesting? My daughter says she and one other person in the whole class are the only ones who are not Asian. Apparentely, math skills may be a race thing?

Now, the other person in our family good at math was her dad's father, who's ancestory is German (German engineers, anyone?) and he ended up being a rocket engieneer....no joke, he helped design the landing system's of the first space shuttle Columbia. Math formulas were his thing! He was always working on a math formula on his chalkboard at home. It's kind of sad he didn't live long enough to see my daughter doing all those things now too.

My daughter wants to be a math teacher, maybe perhaps at college. So she needs math!

But you don't need it as much, so why worry? So you aren't good at math, so what, I stink at it and many others do to. You don't need to prove anything to anybody here. I'm certainly impressed though, that you really want to do something that will help people someday so I hope you do make the grades! :)