I think you are a good mother. The best thing you can do in order to take care of your kids is take care of yourself, and you are doing that. You are talking to your doctor and are active in your healing process, and I think it takes courage and determination to do that. I don't think you should worry too much about the birth control pill, since I doubt your doctor would recommend something that will hurt you. But if there are side effects that persist and are serious you should tell him about it, or even consult another doctor about it. Don't be afraid to get as many oppinions as you can, your health is important. But also depression and anxiety make you blow things out of proportion in your head, so while your body might only be going through the process of adjusting to the new birth control pills, you might think it's something a lot worse. Anxiety makes you fear for your life constantly and I can relate to that, let me tell you, and especially when you are transitioning between different medications, you can be more prone to exagerate it or give in to it. Also, I don't know how long you have been on the Zoloft but it takes a while to adjust to it, also you might need a different dosage, or after a long time (several years or so) it might potentially stop working for you. There are a lot of variables at play and I suggest talking to your doctor some more about it (or your shrink). I know you feel like your days are horrible and work is getting worse and you feel like you're loosing your mind, but trust me, you won't. You simply have to believe that. Just take a deep breath when you are overwhelmed, remind yourself it's the stress talking through you, not you, and focus on the next task you have to do at work. This way you can engage in a pattern of thinking that takes your mind off the stress and give you release, even if just for a moment. Soon you can add another moment like this to it, and then another, and soon you can have a whole hour that is stress/anxiety free. Just give it a try, k? And let us know how your situation develops and what your doctor says.